At last, understanding. At last, my submission is complete. The voices that once existed in my head are now silent. Gone. The Hand of Fate loosens its grip around my neck. At last, I am calm. I sit up in the darkness, mind and body rested, renewed. With my own ego defeated, I am no [...]
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Deep, deep within my soul a battle wages. The me of the past versus an agent of change. The conscious me lies dormant while the fate of my being is decided. I recently made a choice to surrender myself to a world that exists just beyond my realm of understanding. The universe. Our ever expanding [...]
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Today I decided to venture to a nearby coffee shop to, well, just get outside. Truth be told, I was feeling somewhat nervous about going out to do something alone. Which is a strange sensation for me. Most of my life I have been comfortable being a Lone Wolf. From childhood right through university, I [...]
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The walk along this road has been hard. The sun has long been replaced by clouds that speak of a coming storm. A fog rolls in obscuring the path ahead, the horizon now inperceivable in all directions. My pace has slowed. The air is dense, nearly impossible to breathe in. I press on, determined to [...]
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Two nights ago, I came across a new word while was reading online scans of one of my favorite Manga. Sue me. I have a dorky side. This Manga features a group of characters called ‘Espada’. At a point in the story it is revealed that all ten of them each represent an aspect of [...]
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PREFACE: L. Loveless, I hope you are still reading this space. I’m glad to hear you are doing well. The letter below serves two purposes. One, to finally rid myself of this plaguing heart break, and two, to explain to you how I was able to stay with someone emotionally unavailable. Enjoy! +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Dear M., [...]
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