The last ten days or so have been long. It’s as though time has been stretched to the point where each second feels like a minute, each minute feels like a day, each day like a decade. The intensity of my paranoia weighs heavily. I’m at a psychological standstill. After any breakup, the recommended course [...]
My last relationship ended, two days ago, because the other party, let’s call her Jane, came to the decision that she does not have time for a new relationship at the moment. This conversation took place over MSN, which was probably considerate given that it is a thirty kilometer travel from my place to hers. [...]
How I hate you. Try as I might, I can never truly escape you. Just when I think that I’ve been liberated from your cold, still embrace, the scenery changes and I am left holding your hand. You are both something and nothing, a ghost with the presence of a god. You make the air [...]
My biggest fears in life are without a doubt: Abandonment, Rejection, and that I will never truly be loved. Abandoned by a love one. My first experience of this was when my father left our family for good when I was four or five. This event, followed by a continuous cycle of “Tell the kids [...]
I don’t really know what to say. The cycle of good-bad-good-bad-good seems to never end. About two months ago it was alternating on a daily basis. One day good, the next day bad. I’d have a fulfilling day at work. Then my car would get vandalised. The cycle then lengthened to a weekly basis. I [...]