Jane. In all the time I’ve known you, nearly eight months, we were only together for six weeks. Only three of those were truly stable. Rationally, there is no reason for me to feel the way I do. We did our little dance and it just didn’t work out. It’s way past the time to [...]
I’m amazed at how history is repeating itself. According to my own writing (as previously mentioned), my state of mind now is exactly as it was back in September. And so is hers. I’m stunned, broken, and unable to see what is to come next. She’s overwhelmed with anxiety and wants only friendship. And again, [...]
I’m having trouble understanding my current feelings. The mood changes more frequently than the winds, and each one is as fleeting as a cool breeze on a summer evening. I have no idea where I am. But I think I know where I’m going. I’ve been looking over a lot of my posts, the ones [...]
It’s been a while since my last post, longer than I would have liked. The events of the last eleven days were quite a roller coaster, changing too fast for me to take a moment to write about them. Things rose to a point where I started to feel a strong sense of completeness. I [...]
A few nights ago I had one of the most disturbing dreams that I’ve had in quite some time. I was back in high school, playing basketball during lunch, in the gym, just as I used to. My team was made up of others in my grade, friends who I remember well, but haven’t seen [...]
There is no other way, no other road, but the one put before me. Obstacle ridden, and filled with challenges yet to be discovered, it is the path I must walk if a chance at long lasting happiness is to be mine. Admittedly, I have been afraid to move forward without any assurances. However, somewhere [...]
Straight to the point. Jane finally came back. We talked briefly over MSN, where she told me about her decision to end her pursuit to become a dental hygienist. She tried her best, but in the end she felt that she wasn’t going to make it. I sympathized deeply with her. It’s not easy to give up on [...]