DarkJoy

I must apologize.  It’s been far too long since my last entry.  And sadly, I don’t really have a great excuse.  I’ve been wrapped up in my own head for the most part, swimming in a sea of mental and emotional growth.  Hopefully this serves as a quick summary of where I’ve been and where I’ll be going.  No promises to keep this regular in the near future.  If it happens, it happens.

I recently turned Thirty.  Surprisingly, there was no crisis like there was at twenty- five.  Instead I met it with a sort of welcoming and anxious serenity, the way one might feel just before embarking on a new adventure.  Within my mind things felt as though they were finally falling into place in the weeks leading up to my birthday.  Parts of my life and myself that I realized I never truly understood, the parts of emotional and mental strength, started making more sense.  I am eager to see how I meet what the new year will bring.

I’ve also been having the occasional dinner and “dancing” with M.  It’s hard to say what all of it has meant.  I’ve been very reluctant to invest more than the bare minimum of myself, but it’s not quite so easy to do.  Now, as before, she has found a way to charm my heart into the open, though this time, I’ve done so with caution.  Though she sometimes acts as though we are couple, I suspect that I’ll soon be discarded and forgotten, as seems to be the case with Jane.  I’ve learned to just enjoy the good things when they’re around.  The memories will provide comfort and tide you over during the bad times.

This year has been such a roller coaster.  Much has changed, much was lost, much insight has been gained.  Instead of looking to the new year with new hopes and wishes and resolutions, I’ve decided to summarize the things that 2009 has taught me.  Look to future entries, hopefully by the time 2010 rolls in, for me to detail the five things I’ve learned in what will be the last 365 days.

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