DarkJoy

I’m doing my best to keep this blog regular, I swear.

After a stressful two weeks of dealing with my insurance company and the dealership doing the repairs to my car, I think that things are starting to settle down.  The stars seemed to have aligned themselves in such a way to afford me some rest from the continuity of an inconstant existence.

I’d felt that life had fallen so far out of my control that there was little sense in planning, or planning for, anything.  I wonder how the me of even one year ago would have handled these recent events.  Not well, most likely.  Or perhaps, they would have rolled off my back without another thought.  It really is hard to say.

Romantic endeavors seemed to have stalled.  My surrogate big sister said to me today over lunch, “If this is what’s happening regularly, then the problem is clear.  You’re good at starting things, but you aren’t able to close”.  Insert sly smile.  Yeah.  She’s right.  Though I seemed to have progressed a lot recently,  in terms of being able to attract the much desired attention of females, I’m still lacking the ability to keep it.  I have some ideas simmering though.

All in all, I guess I have to say life is good, though I really don’t want to.  I still feel that everything is pointless, and so when I act, I’m acting based on the belief that my actions are irrelevant to the outcome, and not out of ambition.  Taking a step outside of myself, I find my behavior quite interesting….

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