The Time Has Come July 27, 2009 at 8:59 pm
Oddly enough this post is heavily inspired by the last episode of Entourage. Turtle turns thirty, and his friends and girlfriend all buy him lavish gifts that he could never afford himself. While grateful, this only accentuates the feeling that he is a loser that has yet to accomplish anything for himself.
I by no means feel that I am a loser, and if I ever was, I have certainly overcome that. I do however, heavily relate to the feeling of not yet having made something concrete of myself. When I browse the profiles of my friends past and current on linkedin or facebook, I can easily visualize how they would say their job titles. Product manager. Network architect. Military search and rescue pilot. What do I sound like when I describe my job, even to those who get the jargon? Unsure. Submissive. Prideless.
I do however, feel that I am on a path that will take me to a position that I can be proud of and make it show. Later in the episode Ari tells Turtle that when he has paid his dues, when he can prove that he is capable of succeeding, that he should return, and he will give him the assistance he needs. I may or may not have paid my dues to society and to the universe but I must be willing to do whatever it takes to survive. And eventually excel. Anything less is undeserving.
I feel the same way about my job. I usually try to dress it up a bit, saying something like, “Major accounts team” and explaining that includes companies with 100-1000 employees.. blah blah blah, just to avoid saying I’m doing the same bullshit customer service as before except I’m getting paid more. I’m finding myself wondering a lot if I’ll ever have anything more interesting to say. But I’ve taken the necessary steps for change.. registered for school in a new field, so maybe next year I’ll be… ?